When I was newly diagnosed with Schizophrenia, getting used to the medicine was really hard. It left me emotionless and unable to feel anything. After a year on the medicaiton I started drinking. Drinking helped me to laugh and cry and feel again. But I am an addict so of course it didn’t take long before I started to drink in the mornings and all day, hiding my liquor and planning my next drink from early in the mornings. I became an alcoholic at some point. But I knew where there was help. I started going to AA meetings and found sobriety. Recovery was another thing though. I am now in recovery and with the exception of one slip I have been sober for 4 years. Tomorrow is my AA birthday since my slip and I am appreciating my sobriety to its fullness. I have found support with people who are positive for the most part, people who want to improve themselves and people who share their experience, strength and hope with me at the group level and individually. It has made all the difference for my life now and even though the medication still leaves me emotionless compared to before my diagnosis of Schizophrenia, it is better now having support. If drugs and alcohol are a struggle for you I suggest you try the twelve step rooms. People aren’t perfect but for those who can be totally honest, recovery is not only possible but unbelievably rewarding.
- Fears of Quitting – Will I Have Fun in Recovery? (lushnolonger.wordpress.com)