Sometimes life just gets hard. It is hard to know the right thing to do especially when one suffers from mental illness. I am dually diagnosed, I suffer from addiction along with Schizoaffective disorder. I fight it though and am happy to say that today I am clean and sober and taking my mental illness meds as prescribed. It is not every day that I can say that, but I have hope for many more days like today to come, one day at a time.
I have new hope that God will carry me through when I cannot lift myself up even in prayer.
The great part is that there are these really good people in my life today who help me to see the positive side of things. Negative people have a very small place in my life. If I could I would eliminate them altogether but when they are immediate family it is very hard. I try to be positive with them, always pointing out the good in every situation and lately there have been some situations which just suck! But I do my best and I think I am doing a really great job with what life has given me.
I will leave you with this prayer which I try to live each day. It really helps me to get through everything with grace and dignity.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (you),
the courage to change the things I can (me)
and the wisdom to know the difference”