Good morning to all my readers!
It is a special day for me, will share more about this at the end.
I have quit smoking with a plan and am on day 5 with not one puff! I am doing a little vaping at 3mg, my CBD oil which helps me to be more creative, and nicotine lozenges. I am doing this not only for myself but for my children namely my son Dominic….
Finances are not good, but I have a plan for that too. Applied for a retail job last night, think it might be enjoyable to work at a department store for 20-30 hours a week and still help my mom and visit my dad. Need the money and the low pay won’t affect my permanent disability if I get it. It has been one month since the hearing, with one to two months to go to get the verdict. The lawyer made a strong argument in my favor why I can’t work gainfully. I think I will win but until I know for sure it is a little nervewracking.
But I have been keeping busy with my collages, lately of loved ones for birthday cards and made a family heart shaped collage for me to look at when I want to smoke. It really helps. Have been making meditation cards for an upcoming show also, have about 20 so far with a goal to make 20 more. I do this when my husband is watching tv and I sit at the kitchen table in the shared room and collage, cut and paste these beautiful pictures of anything and everything from butterflies to a mosque. Lots of nature pictures too and peaceful images. Don’t know what to sell them for as they cost nearly nothing to make. Spent 18$ on a laminator and ten bucks on the sleeves. Oh well, not in it for the money anyway. If anyone wants me to make them one email me and I can custom make one for just cost of shipping 1$ or so… firstname.lastname@example.org
So I am staying busy while I await the verdict… gardening some, sparking, walking, cleaning house, sanding cabinets to paint in the kitchen, and getting rid of anything that isn’t nailed down ha ha. Also been shopping quite a bit on Amazon, love their lightening deals.
Anxiety is managed at the moment and delusions have lessened again thanks be to God and Mary whose special feast day is today. Our Lady of Sorrows pray for us!
Hope everyone is doing well too!