That was all that was sent to me by SSA disability. unfavorable.
But perhaps it is the very best thing as I already have a job lined up where I used to work as an outreach consultant at a school for my base. I have very much missed working with children these past two years and with no grandchildren in sight it will be good to work with kids again. I am strange, I often prefer to spend time with kids than adults. Much more interesting and I just love their passion for learning new things.
I have already cleaned up my resume and printed it and will go in Monday morning first thing. Can’t wait till Monday…
I’m not going to say that I’m not scared at the idea of working again, I am, but I choose to be brave and trust in God. He has brought me safe thus far and I will continue to rely on Him!
I was diagnosed in 2008 with this dastartd affliction and not a day has gone by that I have felt normal but on this new medicine I have such high hopes. Sure the blood tests weekly suck but it is worth it.
I just came off Risperdal which I have been on since 2008. It kept the voices away but I believe there is more and I want all that is due me. If it is a life of misery then I accept it but I feel it is going to be so much more.
Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate. I over ate today in celebration of the occasion. Didn’t feel well much of the day due to either a tummy bug or withdrawl from the Risperdal. Hopefully will feel better tomorrow.
To anyone newly diagnosed, seriously check out Clozapine. I have hopes I will be able to work again soon and that is very exciting. I get bored sometimes being home a lot and often go for drives by myself just to listen to my music and chill…..
After giving him a very good report, he said, “ok, now we have to try it without your other medicines”.
I was sooooo happy to hear that the first one to eliminate was the Risperdal. It did save my life back in 2008 but I want more out of life than just not hearing voices. I want to live again and the past week I have really started living again.
More social, more well balanced, less vices, a better feeling of well being.
The Risperdal has so many side effects I am really looking forward to tonight when I go to be and increase the Clozapine to 75 mg from 50 and not take the Risperdal. Next will be the Latuda to go and then the anti-anxiety medications I now take.
I have had such high hopes for this medicine to be the answer to so many things. I don’t even mind the weekly blood tests ha ha!
Thanksgiving starts tomorrow for our family, with a pre Thanksgiving dinner I make then to my sisters on Thursday for a larger gathering.
Sneak in a few visits to my dad and it will be a perfect Thanksgiving except for my daughter being away.
Can’t have it all but what I do have is pretty awesome…
Unfolding before me is a new lease on life thanks to Clozapine. Since increasing my dosage to 50 mg I have had an increased sense of balance and well being. I see my psychiatrist next week and am so glad to have a good report.
Getting used to my feelings without drowning them in vices…
Closer to God than ever. I pray the rosary every day and even now it has new meaning. Time with God and Mary and all the wonderful saints.
I am willing to continue this new life. I have been connecting with family too which is awesome. Family is everything to me. My friends are right there too though. It is good to have both really.
Life is so wonderful! I feel more like my old self every day. Hate to go to bed lol.
I so desperately want this medicine to work. I find myself fantasizing that I am no longer ill, but stable and able to hold down a job even if it’s an easy one. I dream of the day when this disorder no longer controls me.
So far the new medicine is helping with:
connecting to family God and friends more and feeling deep emotions
I am hungrier again (gotta watch that one, don’t want to regain all my weight)
no longer delusional, don’t believe I am the greatest person to ever live anymore. What a relief!
using music as a major coping skill while I sift through the laziness or drowsiness caused by the new and old med
How I am still suffering
unmotivated at times to do the simplest of tasks
feeling overmedicated being on three antipsychotic meds