Not sure who is getting my blog posts but wanted to make sure this one got out to all for prayer….If this is a double email for you, my apologies….
It has been a rough week for sure and I am pulling out my bag of tricks to feel better. I know what works and what doesn’t and am seeing a new therapist now which is very helpful. I am certainly doing well in my recovery because I have got through a couple of very hard things without relapsing on many levels.
My dad (who is in extended care due to a major stroke and is paralyzed on his left side) got very sick and we thought it was pneumonia, which if it was we were not going to treat due to his mental decline, but it was just a bad cough and he made it through. Even though he is not always cognitively present it still provides comfort that he is alive; everyone at extended care loves him and he still makes sense the first five minutes and I will take that and hope he is still alive for many years despite the cost of 15,000 dollars a month to keep him in an excellent facility.
Then the past week my mom got gravely ill and we thought she was going to die. I cancelled my class that I love to teach because I was a basket case and witnessed a miracle of her getting better after asking many people to pray for her recovery. The thought of losing both my mom and dad the same month has been very rough but I taught my sociology class today even though it was hard to focus and I have been relaxing a lot, watching netflix (fave show right now is heartland) and eating some healthy and some not so healthy foods to cope with the stress.
Yet, despite all that I am going through tonight I am focused on this one little lost sheep (student) who is trying very hard but is failing my class. The rest of my students are passing with high grades for the most part but she is not. So tonight I referred her to an early alert program which I should have done sooner but better late than never. I won’t give up on her! So if you can pray for her to get the help she needs I would greatly appreciate it.
I feel like I know personally what the bible talks about going after the one sheep that has gone astray, leaving the rest of the herd to help the one that is lost in my class! I don’t see it as a failure on my part because she is the only one who is struggling but I have to do all I can and pray, pray and pray.
Life is good right now! I have both my parent for the moment, my three kids are doing well and my marriage is strong. My husband, who does not begin to understand my diagnosis, has really been compassionate in his way and I have expressed my thanks to him. I love my job teaching sociology 101 and love to challenge my students in new and interesting ways. I hope they will ask me to teach again in the Spring 2019 but we shall see. Any way around it, it has been a great experience and very rewarding. I don’t make much money but love teaching!
My birthday is next week and I have many plans, Morro Bay with my dear daughter, Chinese buffet with family, pizza and movie night and horseback riding on the beach. I feel spoiled! 49 years young!
I am still taking the CBD oil from GOTERPY which has greatly reduced my schizoaffective disorder symptoms. I am no longer delusional which is great to know that I am not the greatest person to ever live lol. Sounds silly but until I started taking the full spectrum CBD oil, I still partially believed it but now I know I am not and it is a great relief!
Hope everyone has a good Friday and thank you for your prayers and positive thoughts for my lost sheep, that she may return with a decent grade and pass my class.