A hard day but still looking up…

Off today after a busy week. Trying to be gentle with myself and I know how to do that, eat right, drink enough water, take lots of down time and never give up.

It has been a while since I felt so discombabulated and I will mark it in my planner, but despite feeling this way still did what feels good, tidied the house, cleaned the kitchen floor and went out in my garden to say hi to my plants, just kidding, I don’t really talk to them yet!

Taking care of me is number one, I am no good at all to anyone if I don’t listen to my body and brain and just take it easy. I find it hard to just relax and veg out and do nothing though hence this blog.

Sorry about my ramblings but it is good for me to share that I am not always ok too. I still have a brain disorder which sometimes takes a break and seriously I hate my televideo calls. In person with my psychiatrist is so much better really. But it is what it is, so must try to connect with him more. Our last appointment was maybe 7 minutes…

Does anyone else feel this way?

Just wondering…

So instead of focusing on all that I am not doing today I am going to relish in a week well done, birthday for daughter done, really spoiled her this year for many reasons and it was fun but now that it is over I find mysefl without purpose once again. I stayed up last night talking to God about my need for a new passion. Gardening will always be there and i enjoy it very much but I feel like I need a new obsession.

One thing I am going to do is clean up this blog…no major changes but unhappy with parts of it.

Anyway, just decided to go visit a friend tonight if it works out. Should be fun.

Hope you all are doing great!

Pax

Victoria

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