Plan for the day, some new, some old…

Woke up this morning not having a clue what day it was.

Wow!  Time passes so weird, neither fast or slow but just this weird pace that I am not getting used to.

Yesterday was a very hard day for many reasons.  But I managed to exercise and felt better.  I was bored with myself, my music my sad existence.

But today I am inspired to look at things differently.  Today I looked up an old band (10000 maniacs) which spoke to me many years ago and still does today.  It reminds me of a dear friend named Terri who I used to hang out with and lost touch.  We used to listen to this band on our many adventures…

I will share my fondest memory.   It was me, my future hubbie and Terri and we went into a busy Jewish restaurant. in Hollywood.  Can’t remember the name but the best matzo ball soup!!!  We walked into the front and Terri just collapses on the floor as a joke.  Everyone was so worried and the mater de was freaking out.  My husband who is much more conservative than us was in shock.  It was hilarious!!!!  I love you Terri where ever you are today if you are still alive.

Anyway, one of the songs I enjoy is called “The Painted Desert”.  I love New Mexico and have driven through the painted desert on more than one occasion .  It just goes and goes and is so peaceful, un-moving and beautiful.

So I found an image of New Mexico Painted Desert and printed it and am making a desert collage.  I love the desert.  Last year me and my daughter went to Joshua Tree and had such a peaceful and wonderful time.  I could live there.  I love the desert heat and could just imagine myself in self quarantine there instead of here where it is cold and unimaginative.

But I would never leave my children to go be a hermit.  But if things continue as they are going it might be an option.

Wondering if this country and world will ever go back to normal.

Today I am also working out and have a phone meeting with my grief therapist.  So for now the collage must wait.  The fun part of making collages is that you can take things from your past, and from the internet.  All you need is a printer.  But you can also use old post cards.  And if you are an artist can draw your theme.

Since my theme is the desert it will surely have a Joshua Tree on it.  Not sure what else.  Must go get dressed and take my supplements…

Will share a pic of my collage when it is done.

God bless and be safe.

and as my husband advised last night, “Carpe Diem”.  Seize the day.

pax

Victoria

 

Wow!!!! Will this ever end?

Every day it gets worse and today I am fighting for my mental health.

Not exercising really impacts me physically and mentally. Today I will force myself.

Checking back later today on my efforts.

Wishing you all peace ☮️ and love ❤️

Pax

Victoria

experiment failed…

so i did something stupid.  i stopped exercising for a few days and then ate a bunch of junk food. i feel like crap. only thing getting me through it is kroq 106.7 fm radio station.  they give me the news along with my favorite music…

mentally down but forcing myself to get busy today.  running out of things to clean or at least what I am willing to clean.  The overhead light in my kitchen has never been cleaned. pure grease. blogging is helping my mood.

Favorite song right now- Running up that Hill, made a deal with God by Kate Bush.  I must make a deal with God to end the corona virus. at least that is one of my delusions. Not really in the mood to share it today as promised.  Too raw,, too person, too global.

Time is as nothing

days on end

stuck in the new pattern of life

pax

Victoria

Warning~Religious post with no apologies…

Jesus died for us, plain and simple, He rose from the dead in expiation of our sins and lives today at the right hand of the father, filled with love and mercy for us all.  All we have to do is ask Him in and He will graciously accept!

Even though we may be disordered or know a loved one with a disorder God loves us all the more.  he knows all our sufferings and difficulties and knows the deepest thoughts of our estranged at times minds.

I wish I could write in Spanish… just pondering these thoughts today on another day in physical distancing mode.

To keep busy I have been doing the mundane and even brushed my dogs and brushed their teeth!  Gave them extra treats because I am rationing their dog food until it is safe to go out and buy it.

May order some on line but I like to get a good kind and I’ll have to look that up but for now I am good with spoiling them with extra treats.

Back to Jesus.  If you are despairing right now or are unsure if you believe in God or heaven or anything say this simple prayer and watch the Holy Spirit work wonders in your life.

“Jesus, I ask you into my heart.  I love you and thank you for loving me.  Please send the Holy Spirit to guide me and all my loved ones and the whole world right now when the devil is happy we are apart. ”

Solidarity is unity through Jesus!!!

But the devil won’t be happy if we pray this prayer.  Say amen and really mean it and your life will change.  And if you already have done this, can I get an Amen and a prayer for all of those who really need a prayer right now even if they are not yet ready to accept Jesus into their life.

God bless

pax

Victoria

Tired of new normal…but looking up!

Tired but still not giving up…

Mentally good but tired of the social restrictions placed upon all of us, especially not being able to visit my dear parents who are both in a different care facility one and a half miles apart.

Today I took my dad a lottery scratcher that he had been asking for.  He can’t understand why I can’t help him with it but he has a dear aide who is going to help him.  It is nice to know he is loved so much.

After dropping off the scratcher, I decided to go on an adventure and walk to my mom’s independent facility to bring her a new crossword puzzle.  It was a lovely day and nice to veer from the norm.  Saw a few people from afar…

This is the new normal.  Pictures with just one or two people or dare I say three?  Pictures of scenery because somehow it helps to look at all the places we cannot go.  The new normal.  I feel like my life is virtual in so many ways right now.

I created a motivation board to help me stay in a good routine and for inspiration when I need it and it is already helping.  Will try to post a pic but we shall see.  At the top is God looking up.  All knowing, all powerful, everywhere.  We must look up at times like this.  It is my only hope.

Then it has my yoga encouragement.  Don’t know why but it is very hard to bring myself to the mat now and even prior this craziness.

To the left of my yoga time steps it has my Super space.  Right now I am doing everything super style.  Super foods (today I added mushrooms cuz somehow they’re supposed to help) and extra sauce to a frozen pizza), super walks, super bath and spa time, super me time, super nap time!  You get the idea.

So when I am stressed or bored, I can look at my board and get ideas for things to do when I am just sitting there thinking about how the world has changed.

The pink box is all I must do every day to keep my routine going.  Having a routine to follow really helps keep me focused with my eye on the prize!  What is the prize?  Well in everything it is heaven, but here on earth it is sanity and well-being.  It may help some of you to find your focus each new day in personal partying mode.  My daughter coined that phrase with a friend instead of calling it social distancing.  Lol.  Love her creativity.

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I am good for the most part but my husband decided to return to work tomorrow so that entails so many things.  On one had we will be able to make our mortgage payments but on the other hand it means exposure.  But that is a blog for another day.  I gave him a big hug because it might be the last one he gets for a while!

Hope and pray you all are doing well.  Thank you for the likes and comments.  They do really help but if only one person reads this and is helped then it is worth my time and if I am the only one who knows these thoughts then Amen so be it!

God bless you all!

Stay safe and sane and write anytime at:

victoriamariealonso@yahoo.com

I have developed some of the most amazing friendships and had the most opportunities through this blog.  Can’t believe it has been a year since Boston sitting on the advisory board of Snow Companies, paid travel plus compensation.  Who would have guessed what life would be like one year later.

Ok, posting the pic of my motivation board thanks to the help of my son!

pax

Victoria

 

 

Helped a homeless man…

I forgot all I have learned the past two weeks and had empathy…. spontaneously gave him some supplies and feeling bad that I may have exposed myself and my household.

Was in a good space yesterday so went to park and met William. I feel so bad for the homeless right now but have decided to stay home and work on my gardening.

Pax

Victoria