2 days now on the medicine Nivigil and 6 weeks on Clozapine which is amazing. My pdoc prescribed me Nivigil to help with the tiredness caused by Clozapine. It works amazingly! For two days now I have had motivation to do things I have put off for some of it off for many years.
Every corner of my humble home is under scrutiny right now. Just sayin…
I don’t know if this makes sense to anyone else, but the days of darkness are I feel behind me with this new medication regime. My good friend Bethany Yeiser of CureSZ shared her experience with me of the benefits of Clozapine And I took it to my pdoc right away almost and am just so grateful she shared with me.
So I want to share now with everyone who reads this who has still struggled with positive and negative symptoms of Schizophrenia or Schizoaffective Disorder. You do not have to suffer needlessly. Ask your psychiatrist about Clozapine. I just wish I knew about it sooner but it is what it is and I am grateful now more than ever to have my life back. It might help you too!
My whole outlook has changed. I am enjoying life in a new way and am so grateful to even be alive. This from someone who was suicidal just a few months ago, no plan mind you but the thoughts were there and now they are gone. I am more social and am always trying to find ways to give back what was so freely given to me. lol. I am also wonderfully free of all delusions of grandeur! How I love this because they were a great burden.
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I am currently at 100 mg of clozapine, and despite the tiredness I feel pretty good hopeful and keeping up with everything for the most part…
I have applied for a job which I might get…
But in the meantime I keep myself busy with light tasks and fun hobbies.
I make bath diy products, soap, hand sanitizer, lotion, bath bombs and use my quite nice collection of essential oils, which I have been collecting the last few months.
Lavender is my favorite for night or when I am chilling, jasmine and yiang yiang during the day hours. I not only have an room diffuser but I also wear a necklace made of lava rocks which diffuse the oils too that I am enjoying.
I also garden when it is nicer and enjoy my flowers throughout the areas I have been working on. I also just bought a windchime for the front. Not windy right now though.
I busy myself also with making DIY Christmas decorations. This year will be a sad year because my daughter isn’t coming home but will be here in January. It is because of this that I am doing Christmas very different this year. I sent a few important cards but not to everyone I usually send to. Why is it that only at Christmas we remember certain people?
I have been celebrating Christmas for weeks now giving away the bath products I made and little well meaning gifts. I enjoy giving. IT’s fun to bless someone that isn’t expecting it.
I have much serenity these days as I adjust to my new medication. Prayer is at the forefront of every day, and I see answered prayer among my day quite frequently. I have candles burning for different requests. One for my dad and mom, one for my daughter and a dear friend for their future spouses, one for Mike my husbands friend who tried to kill himself but didn’t succeed but is left in a poor state, one for all my family and loved ones. To God do I burn these candles and trust my prayers are being heard by heaven!
I do not have much anxiety right now which is good. I have so much love and joy and am experiencing these wonderful emotions while I wait for what I do not know what the future will bring.
I have a certain sadness because of my dad. Hoping he makes it another Christmas…
Unfolding before me is a new lease on life thanks to Clozapine. Since increasing my dosage to 50 mg I have had an increased sense of balance and well being. I see my psychiatrist next week and am so glad to have a good report.
Getting used to my feelings without drowning them in vices…
Closer to God than ever. I pray the rosary every day and even now it has new meaning. Time with God and Mary and all the wonderful saints.
I am willing to continue this new life. I have been connecting with family too which is awesome. Family is everything to me. My friends are right there too though. It is good to have both really.
Life is so wonderful! I feel more like my old self every day. Hate to go to bed lol.
Yesterday was very hard and long for me. My mom had knee replacement surgery and had to be there at 5:45 am, I didn’t sleep much the night before in fact stayed up late to hang out with my 18 yr old son….
So the day was spent waiting for her to come out of surgery and she is frail mind you so there was that scare. But she did better than fine. The surgery was three hours though and had to wait a while to see her in recovery. Some other stressful things to help her get settled but I got through it and went to bed at 9:00pm last night and slept in till 9.
Today is a new day and I am happy to report she is walking around a little with little pain and a very cheery countenance!
I am glad for new days especially after a hard day like yesterday. Makes me appreciate things more. Little things like my ice water and lavendar scents make me happy. Gardened a little today, watering and prepping for new fall plants.
I have my other hobbies as well such as cleaning my house in depth. Got my list and getting through it one project at a time. Even painted some indoors to spruce things up.
My other hobbies (goat soap making and other natural products) and collaging are there too when I get done with the deep cleaning of my house and the gardening and yuck weeding out front.
We might be having a party over here in October so my husband is doing his part getting the yards looking good and getting rid of trash and junk! We have been married 25 years and although he doesn’t really understand my mental disorder, he is there for me in other ways like leaving me be yesterday for the most part when I was just done with the day!
Hope everyone has a good end of September as October is right around the corner, birthday time soon! 48 years young!!!
Now that exercise has become a daily habit it seems like I am not even disordered anymore. New muscles seem to pop up as I vary my workouts daily to keep my body guessing. Today I went on a 4 mile uphill downhill hike. My feet are very tired but I feel good from the hike and know I will sleep good tonight like usual.
Thank you to all of you who shared what exercises you are doing to stay mentally fit. I just love life these days, with each new day presenting a new opportunity to feel great through exercise. I joined two hiking clubs, one is silent meditation hiking and the other one is more social and fast paced. I like the silent hikes better. I believe talking is overrated. I would much rather pray and observe nature in silence…. That being said I did receive a thought while on one of the silent meditation hikes in thinking a lot about my father and when he will die. The thought was that death is not a separation… This gives me hope that after he passes I will still feel connected to him although his body will no longer be present. But for now he is still with us and I enjoy every minute I get to spend with him. Today as I was leaving he was making oogly faces when I told him I was going to bring him more ressus peanut butter cup ice cream. He just loved it! These small moments leave me so happy!
The next time I see my pdoc in April I am going to discuss with him how to check if I still need the anti-anxiety meds and what is the best way to try going without, to taper down or just skip a dosage. I always check with my pdoc before changing any medication.
Can’t remember if I shared on here about taking an art class working with pewter but my art class is fun too and is very social. I am so picky when it comes to people but I really enjoy this small community of artists. I have made one good friend within the group, which I find as I get older is more rare than common. My “creation” piece is almost outlined and then I will start embossing certain areas. I will post a pic of it when it is done. I will still need to mount the pewter to wood and add finishing touches. I don’t work on it every day but only when I am in the mood and then it is therapeutic. If I work on it when I am not in the mood it feels forced and isn’t enjoyable but more of a chore.
As I continue to branch out and get involved in the community I have more hope. I still may work again but that remains to be seen so I am not worried about it right now. Still waiting on my permanent disability hearing. It has been a year but my lawyers say it may take 18 months now:(