I am currently at 100 mg of clozapine, and despite the tiredness I feel pretty good hopeful and keeping up with everything for the most part…
I have applied for a job which I might get…
But in the meantime I keep myself busy with light tasks and fun hobbies.
I make bath diy products, soap, hand sanitizer, lotion, bath bombs and use my quite nice collection of essential oils, which I have been collecting the last few months.
Lavender is my favorite for night or when I am chilling, jasmine and yiang yiang during the day hours. I not only have an room diffuser but I also wear a necklace made of lava rocks which diffuse the oils too that I am enjoying.
I also garden when it is nicer and enjoy my flowers throughout the areas I have been working on. I also just bought a windchime for the front. Not windy right now though.
I busy myself also with making DIY Christmas decorations. This year will be a sad year because my daughter isn’t coming home but will be here in January. It is because of this that I am doing Christmas very different this year. I sent a few important cards but not to everyone I usually send to. Why is it that only at Christmas we remember certain people?
I have been celebrating Christmas for weeks now giving away the bath products I made and little well meaning gifts. I enjoy giving. IT’s fun to bless someone that isn’t expecting it.
I have much serenity these days as I adjust to my new medication. Prayer is at the forefront of every day, and I see answered prayer among my day quite frequently. I have candles burning for different requests. One for my dad and mom, one for my daughter and a dear friend for their future spouses, one for Mike my husbands friend who tried to kill himself but didn’t succeed but is left in a poor state, one for all my family and loved ones. To God do I burn these candles and trust my prayers are being heard by heaven!
I do not have much anxiety right now which is good. I have so much love and joy and am experiencing these wonderful emotions while I wait for what I do not know what the future will bring.
I have a certain sadness because of my dad. Hoping he makes it another Christmas…